5May2020
‘Distant’-a conversation between two lost friends.
What happened to us you ask?
You got a boyfriend and not one of those types that appreciate friends lurking around
He’s character so nasty and just the thought of him makes me nauseous.
He’d secretly approach me when you both fought and accused me of being the cause or maybe “the Curse”.
He’d say all sorts of things and leave me blank.
I tried to talk to you, but you always seemed preoccupied.
I never thought I’d ever regret having a best friend Because now I really do.
Jamila, I wish we were never friends.
I wish we never met in kindergarten.
I wish we never went to the same high school, not to talk of that same University.
If we hadn’t made memories, maybe I won’t be so hurt..
Jammy, you’ve changed and you know it.
I know that when Seun came along, it became different.
But weren’t you the one who encouraged me to go ahead?
Weren’t you the one who told me to allow love have its way?
On the days we went on dates, I would call you to come along, but you withdrew….
Lesser texts, lesser calls, lesser hang outs
Then days passed, then weeks, then months. Now it’s three years and two months and three days since we stopped talking
Funny how I count the days
Maybe the hope of us talking is still dim inside of me.
I scroll my messages downwards just to your chats
Maybe you texted me and I didn’t see it
But I open it and no text from you.
Then, I decide to chat you but try to think of what topic to bring up.
Your status shows you have a brand new life.
You even have a fiancee now
Too bad, I was offline the day you posted your engagement.
That was the perfect opportunity for me to strike up a conversation.
Now, I await the day we will meet and wonder what we’ll say to each other.
To address your statement about Seun
All of a sudden, you started acting weird, first to him and then to me.
What was I supposed to do?
I tried to reach you because of your sudden behaviours.
You didn’t tell me about him accusing you
And everytime you called, coincidentally fell on our date days..
What did you expect me to do?
Regret is an everyday feeling for me
And I wished you weren’t in that boat too, cause it makes it feel like we have an even stronger bond
Regret! Jamila, you regret?
How hard was it to politely excuse urself just to pick my calls?
If that was too hard, was returning a call after your dates also difficult?
Isn’t it proper manners to return a call?
We used to be friends.
You claimed to Knew me well, yet was a date enough to make you unable to understand how I felt when my calls were not returned?.
I won’t blame you anymore.
I probably stopped blaming you when the sudden distant storm split us apart…
I don’t know what to say to you.
It’s been 3 years ,2 months ,3days and 45minutes to be precise.
However, Jamila am glad we’ve been able to get it off our minds. Let the past lie in the dust,
Seeing that misleading circumstances made us ire .
I would love to see you again! Maybe then we can start over our childlike friendship again.
I was never able to make another friend like you.
This much sound as though we were married from birth. It’s funny don’t you think?
I’m glad you spoke
I’m also glad you lashed out
And yes, I would like for us to start all over again…
Our relationship was probably charted by God
Jamie & Jamila
See you soon Jamila.
Can’t wait for us to wear our Jamie and Jamila necklaces again just like old times.